Girls' thoughts!

Prove me wrong!

If boys will not look at a hot chick or even a simple pretty lady. Even though for those guys who already has a girlfriend or wife.

Advantage of seeing girls but the disadvantageS are more! Lols

I think for most of us we know what is the advantage right? Which is can prove that our boyfriend or husband are not gay and is normal. Lols . Somehow I only know this advantage other than that not really I can think it.

The disadvantageS are more to go!

• When your boy walking on the street with you suddenly a hot chick pass by. They sure will look at it. What I mean is Look NOT Glance at it. Both of these meaning are really different from each other.

• Worse thing is some of the boys will say out. Wow! This girl is so nice and what so ever thingy ~!@#$%. Yes, I know they do not have the intention to say out. But for a girlfriend or wife they will not like to listen.

• We girls have to be like poker face. This is because to show how “generous” we are. If not you boys will complaint. Even a nice and friendly girl also does not like to hear it.

• Complaint us why our shape of body not like other girls? When we girls hear this of course we wanna change to those shape that you boys requested for. But when we girls wanna do that. You boys stop us and tell us Natural is the best! Is really sweet! Few days later, you boys bring up again. You boys really confused us sometimes.

You guys just say girls also the same! Yes, no doubt we also see good looking guys. But we just glance and keep quiet. As we know our boyfriend or husband when listen will feel unhappy. So when sometimes you boys sometimes give compliment to other girls, you boys cannot blame us that giving a feedback toward that we compliment to other boys.

Lol….no heart feeling ya! Just express out our girls feelings.

Tears + Sobbing = Crying

Why girls like to cry?

Actually not tend to be liked is just that we not strong enough to hold back our tears. Do you think we like to show out when we’re crying. From what I see, is no! As we also don’t want let other people to know how fragile we are. Especially towards me.

Crying can so called to expressed out our feelings. We are much more better than guys. This is because we aren’t like guys, moody will tend to find someone to create an argument, later on fight. Am I right?

Let’s talk about myself in this kind situation which is quite often. What I’ve mentioned above mostly are related to myself but also is the fact for most of the girls. The reason I’m crying most of the times because I really cannot hold back my tears. If possible I wouldn’t want to do that especially in front of my hubby, my friends and especially toward my parents. I’m crying not because I want to get any mercy from “you guys”.

Previously, you said to me. Do not cry in front of me, I won’t pity you. I really upset you will say that. I cried because I really cannot hold it back, if do I won’t cry in front you and in the house.

Is really suffer when I’m crying almost every single night while lie on my bed. No one can hug and comfort me. I really wish my hubby that time always can be appeared beside anytime. I know is can’t, never mind at least I have a cat which is my hubby bought for me. I treat the cat like him though. I really don’t like this type of life. In every week at least I need to cry once or twice a week. This been happening on me for more than 3 years.

At night, I really feel so lonely. This already also happening on me more than 3 years. But now at least better, because II have my hubby to comfort me even though he can’t physically. Not to say I don’t want argue back is I can’t. If I do I need to face the unwanted consequence. I’m okay to handle if comes to the worst case scenario. But if involve humiliating in front of everyone. Make my reputation from up to down. I really don’t like.

But if you really do that. I also know what I will do back. You said I’m gonna remember this for life. Yes, that is for sure! After that, I also will do something for you which make you remember forever and until you sleep in the coffin you also can remember. You can make me double or triple. Is okay, I will pay all in ONCE! Is okay, I lost you. As you said you don’t mind to lost a daughter.

Frankly speaking, I dislike everytime I wrote out my problem with tears. Which mean everytime I express out my emotion through here with crying. This feeling is so not good to taste again and again. Even now I write about this also with moody and crying scence. Hope beside of my table guest won't look at me like a sudden freak. LOLs!

I’m really hate you till death unless you change something. But I guess not gonna happen. As you think you always right.

I really grateful that I have you hubby. Whenever I not happy even though you physically not beside me but you did comfort me and say something which is funny to make me calm down and laugh.

Love you, hubby ;)

Lovely

A superb day I had!!

Although the whole day. My hubby and I stayed in the room for the whole day but I was very happy with it.

We had our breakfast near his house. As you see the above picture that I posted here he ordered lot of dim sum which like he did not predict that we couldn’t finish. How cute he is huh? Hahaha…anyway we did finished it all. Mostly ate by him though. Lol, he such a giant in eating food.

Is really nice when your love’s one are beside with you. The feelings like no matter what happen he will be here and protect you. You can feel is safe when he is beside you. I;m sure this feelings everyone does know especially for girls.

Honestly speaking he is a nice guy for me. Yes for now he does not own a car or a house. But he has good heart that I deserved to be loved. Furthermore, now he does not have but doesn’t mean in future he can’t get it.

A guy who is wealthy enough and has car or a house. But if he is not good in terms of treating others, especially treats towards his girlfriend or wife. He is a tremendously ridiculous guy.

For me my boy already is more than good enough. He has sacrificed a lot. It was very touching but at the same time I also do feel very guilty. As I can’t repay back to him. This relationship between he and I is consider I’ve found one in my life. Or you guys so call is “True Love”.

Now I can be with him, in future I’m also wish that the last person I spend with is him too.

Je’taime to my hubby boy♥

What can I say or What shall I say?

Sometimes I really do question myself. Why my hubby will dislike me doing this and that? Why he won’t let me or wouldn’t allow me to do this and that? Why he has to be like this? Why he can’t be like others? …I’m such “Question-nista huh? Lol

Seriuously, is really making me headache for quite some times. If I say I’m okay. Do you think I’m okay? Of course not. Come on, I’m a normal human being like you guys and also do have feelings ;/

BUT after I get mad or unhappy. I slowly flashback and think why he will this or why he will that and etc…the MAIN REASON also he does really care about me and my safety too.

He told me that me just only belong to him. Only can let me wear sexy when I’m with him. This because and also obviously he does not want other guys to have an eye on me. Furthermore, he knows I’m being tackle most of the times when I’m walking to my home.

I think deep inside actually he really concern me and yet I still create more worries to let him even worry about me.

I’m sorry hubby. I should be mature and not being naïve. I shall listen your words and advice. Sorry to let you worry so much. But also thank you that you still have the patience with me.

ILY hubby♥

Feelings

Such a long time did not update my blog. I wonder how is my blog now whether still alive or active?

Anyway, that doesn’t matter. What matter me most is my relationship with him which is my hubby. July is gonna fall next month and when is come to 13th is our 1 year anniversary. Is really happy right? But definitely is just physically happy, mentally Not happy. Just like my hubby said is been a year and yet we don’t have a chance that having a nice simple dinner together nor sleep together for at least a night. I know my hubby is really sad, but so do I.

For me I don’t want happen it like “a”. I want it to be happened like “are”. Everyday when I am day dreaming or sleeping while I’m dreaming. I also will dream about that someday you can come to my house or I go to your place that every single night that you will hug me to sleep till the next morning. Dream about we can go for a local trip together, to beach and everything. I really do want these to be happened, I’m so wish that a Fairy God Mother will fulfill my this dream now.

Every time when you say you need me, I also feel very bad that I could not be with you when you need me the most. When I need you the most, physically you cannot be with me too. But some comfort from you I’m already feel good enough. Lot of people say me and also you do say me, I’m like a person is easily to reach my satisfaction. Actually it depends what things. As for this I really do. This is because the way I have is not easy definitely I will grab the chance and precious it. Just like I’m having you. Getting a relationship can be easy but getting a good guy is not easy. You always say, you’re not good enough. For me you are more than enough. I trust you hubby that you are loyal to me. I believe that you can make my like dark become it colourful.

If saying not good enough, is me aren’t you. I always fail you and sometimes also can’t even fulfill the simple needs that you want. Even though most of the times we meet the time is less just like 15 minutes in the morning or 1 hour your break. It doesn’t matter for me. Sometimes I even rushing to there because to meet you for an hour. But that okay for me, because I really do care about us. You said I’m suffer like this. I told you countless time, have the chance to meet you I feel happy is not suffer. I don’t mind the process if the result is good for me. Don’t you know hubby?

Is really sweet that you always treat me so nice. I feel very bliss and safe when I’m with you. The feeling that you always give me, is always better than my parents. You always my parents treat me not bad. For me no matter how they treat me good, they also won’t treat like you treat me so good. Sometimes when I see you, I really want to hug you and cry out loud. But like you say our time spending is less cannot involve so many unhappy stuff with it.

♥ For me you are my first priority valuable person in my life. Bare in mind hubby you are irreplaceable.♥

why my life can't be like everyone else? yes, a lot of people do say nobody is perfect. but i don't think i have normal outing with friends like every 19 years old teenagers do.

i'm really sorry to my hubby.
as left him alone every night.

sorry that i have no courage to bring him to meet my parents.who doesn't want your love one be with you everyday especially during bed time.

you have home and good job waiting for you.but because of me you still here. yes,you are really nice. but i'm also very shelfish.

i say everytime want to let you to meet my aunt or etc other people. actually i'm still have no confident on my relatives. i'm such a coward! damn!

you said on and off you will cry.sorry because 90% is because of me. you said i'm already good. it is nice to here but fact is i'm not.

i can't do things that you want even a simple things and you can't hold it anymore longer.

when you make me laugh most of the times i will feel sad. because you are in a problem still can make me happy.

like this i more heart pain. i cannot do anything,your mum is right. you shall listen to your mum. then you won't be so suffer.

previously i have not met you,my life will be always alone in doing things and cry almost everyday. that time i wish i can find a boy that can make me happy.

finally i did it.but another way round make you more not happy. i'm really shellfish.i'm sorry.i'm okay to be alone.

yes,maybe firstly i will be very sad and hurt.but who knows?!! maybe slowly i will be used to it with lonely. and back to my old life system which i don't want.

see you suffer and i cannot do anything.i cannot be so shelfish. i'm really sorry.

I'm that weak?

Today,whole day let people scold and nag while I was driving. While driving,my tears already nearly came out.

He which mean is my dad said I'm a failure. Driving can't do well,studies also not good enough,attitude got problems,even my walking also problem. Am I really that weak or a problematic person?

Until dinner also said I'm a retard and stupid. Just because I asked him have you ordered my drink and I could not hear just repeat one more time. After dinner came back home still continue scolding and saying. I promised myself not to cry so easily but I fail.

Can say that today whole day I'm full of tears not a good day for me since this morning. Furthermore, recently my mind is full of problem which haven't or cannot be solved. Though for most of yall is easy. but for me is a fear!

When going back from the mall to my college as he already arrived to pick me up. I'm starting to frustrated in chinese which mean is fan. Why my life is seem to be rush? Meeting up my hubby rush,study rush,do things rush and etc.

The worst part is even just now I took a nap during in the afternoon and I had a dream. The dream somehow is most likely similar to my life also full of RUSH! WHY?
Even I sleep and my dream could not be peaceful?

I'm having a big headache when I woke up. I realise that I really
have enough.

Except the time when I'm happy during afternoon as can meet my hubby although the time period is short. From there, I only have smile. You bought for me a Fred Perry blouse and you told me when you're doing something you will think about me first.

You asked me, whether am I the same thing too? I did not answer you.
BUT my answer is 'When every time Iim doing anything, I wish you can be by my side and do it together.'

Although this can be happened for a long time or like you tell me not going to happen. I'm think too much only. But actually I really want.

But till night during skype, not fun like during afternoon. More towards argument. Sorry, I thought can talk to you so that can reduce my thinking. But I created more problems for you.