why my life can't be like everyone else? yes, a lot of people do say nobody is perfect. but i don't think i have normal outing with friends like every 19 years old teenagers do.

i'm really sorry to my hubby.
as left him alone every night.

sorry that i have no courage to bring him to meet my parents.who doesn't want your love one be with you everyday especially during bed time.

you have home and good job waiting for you.but because of me you still here. yes,you are really nice. but i'm also very shelfish.

i say everytime want to let you to meet my aunt or etc other people. actually i'm still have no confident on my relatives. i'm such a coward! damn!

you said on and off you will cry.sorry because 90% is because of me. you said i'm already good. it is nice to here but fact is i'm not.

i can't do things that you want even a simple things and you can't hold it anymore longer.

when you make me laugh most of the times i will feel sad. because you are in a problem still can make me happy.

like this i more heart pain. i cannot do anything,your mum is right. you shall listen to your mum. then you won't be so suffer.

previously i have not met you,my life will be always alone in doing things and cry almost everyday. that time i wish i can find a boy that can make me happy.

finally i did it.but another way round make you more not happy. i'm really shellfish.i'm sorry.i'm okay to be alone.

yes,maybe firstly i will be very sad and hurt.but who knows?!! maybe slowly i will be used to it with lonely. and back to my old life system which i don't want.

see you suffer and i cannot do anything.i cannot be so shelfish. i'm really sorry.