Today,whole day let people scold and nag while I was driving. While driving,my tears already nearly came out.
He which mean is my dad said I'm a failure. Driving can't do well,studies also not good enough,attitude got problems,even my walking also problem. Am I really that weak or a problematic person?
Until dinner also said I'm a retard and stupid. Just because I asked him have you ordered my drink and I could not hear just repeat one more time. After dinner came back home still continue scolding and saying. I promised myself not to cry so easily but I fail.
Can say that today whole day I'm full of tears not a good day for me since this morning. Furthermore, recently my mind is full of problem which haven't or cannot be solved. Though for most of yall is easy. but for me is a fear!
When going back from the mall to my college as he already arrived to pick me up. I'm starting to frustrated in chinese which mean is fan. Why my life is seem to be rush? Meeting up my hubby rush,study rush,do things rush and etc.
The worst part is even just now I took a nap during in the afternoon and I had a dream. The dream somehow is most likely similar to my life also full of RUSH! WHY?
Even I sleep and my dream could not be peaceful?
I'm having a big headache when I woke up. I realise that I really
have enough.
Except the time when I'm happy during afternoon as can meet my hubby although the time period is short. From there, I only have smile. You bought for me a Fred Perry blouse and you told me when you're doing something you will think about me first.
You asked me, whether am I the same thing too? I did not answer you.
BUT my answer is 'When every time Iim doing anything, I wish you can be by my side and do it together.'
Although this can be happened for a long time or like you tell me not going to happen. I'm think too much only. But actually I really want.
But till night during skype, not fun like during afternoon. More towards argument. Sorry, I thought can talk to you so that can reduce my thinking. But I created more problems for you.
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Hard to be described...
I told you that you back to your homettown because I see that u so suffer.
But actually I really wish you can stay.
I'm sorry I can't do those things that you want really much. What you want I also really want and need it. You told me when you want go back is bringing me along. My mood for that time was consider stable and happy when you said this.
But late night you told me you were going back on May. I was shock and sad. Don't know what to do, text you few times replied once. told me you wanted to sleep. I cry like as usual, did not sleep whole as usual and because these things.
But actually I really wish you can stay.
I'm sorry I can't do those things that you want really much. What you want I also really want and need it. You told me when you want go back is bringing me along. My mood for that time was consider stable and happy when you said this.
But late night you told me you were going back on May. I was shock and sad. Don't know what to do, text you few times replied once. told me you wanted to sleep. I cry like as usual, did not sleep whole as usual and because these things.
Saturday, March 3, 2012
♥Sweet & Lovely♥ My Blast 19 Birthday Bash!
First thing I did on that day was went to my hubby boy's place like as usual.Again that I was thinking celebrated simple and nice. Is already perfect enough for me. Besides,hubby also mentinoned to me that he won't gonna buy any pressies for me. Just a simple day with him and grab a nice meal with him. This already consider a memorable prsent that I want.
But no no and big NO! lol
This is because he was planning another surprise again! Which was for me...lol,which I did not and like a blur dumb dumb.
He gave me 3 surprises in 3 different times. How bad huh?!! lolPreviously,he did ask me do I want a Husky puppy. Of course,I do but my mum would not allow me to keep one. I thought he was mentioning the real dog not the toy's dog...lol
So he wanted to see my that 'Uh,this present?!!' expession...Which mean the unsatisfied or unhappy expression when he present me the HUSKY RESCUE. Meanwhile, YES! He did it and sucessful with it...lol
Later on,I thought no presents anymore but after 5 to 10 minutes. He brought out another prsents out again. Which is a sweater from Uniqlo,is really "What the .... ! " I mean in a nice way because I did not expect that. (The sweater is really comfy and nice to be hold too! :D ) and he also did this second surprise wanted to see my expression like getting more happy and excited. Oh YEA! He did it again! =.= Lol
Next,I really thought is no surprise anymore and is finished. Unfortunately no. As he suddenly took out middle of nowhere with a Roxy paper bag! In my heart said OH GOSH! because he already spent a lot of money on my presents and is kinda painful seeing this. But what he prsent me also contain different meaning to be wore and kept.
Back to topic! The final present is a Roxy's watch. Really nice and is what I wanted to buy a long time ago but not Roxy brand.
Actually,my first thinking when he brought out the Roxy paper bag,I thought is a bikini. lol because I did mentioned to him that Roxy's bikini is really pretty and I would like to have one. LOL!
But, hubby you really did one thing which was succesful and you wanted it for so long. You had sucessful MADE ME CRIED! lol...the reason I did put my tears is because is been really long decade I did not feel have a people that treat me really great! I feel very happy and blissful. Thank you hubby♥
TAADA!!! What my hubby gave me on my Birthday! ♥ u
After that, we went to Shogun at Farenheit. We thought that birthday person is free but we made a mistake. Actually need to be 4 persons include the birthday person only consider free. but we also won't went to there again. The food was not really hot to serve although a lot of varieties.
Later on,we headed back to college again as I had class. Again I did not expect that my darlings and course rep will celebrate for me because on that I was kinda busy with my assignment stuff. I really had a blast!!!
These pictures were after finished the lecture class:
# crazy chicks of my darlings waiting for the chocolate.
Cutting cake into slices for my darlings
My hubby♥♥♥
My darlings♥
Presents from my darlings and course rep ♥
In my 19 years,this is the most happy birthday I ever had. Prsents that I received the most are this year! Love you darlings♥ and special thanks to Carmen Chai for taking all the pictures ♥
♥Love you,Hubby♥
But no no and big NO! lol
This is because he was planning another surprise again! Which was for me...lol,which I did not and like a blur dumb dumb.
He gave me 3 surprises in 3 different times. How bad huh?!! lolPreviously,he did ask me do I want a Husky puppy. Of course,I do but my mum would not allow me to keep one. I thought he was mentioning the real dog not the toy's dog...lol
So he wanted to see my that 'Uh,this present?!!' expession...Which mean the unsatisfied or unhappy expression when he present me the HUSKY RESCUE. Meanwhile, YES! He did it and sucessful with it...lol
Later on,I thought no presents anymore but after 5 to 10 minutes. He brought out another prsents out again. Which is a sweater from Uniqlo,is really "What the .... ! " I mean in a nice way because I did not expect that. (The sweater is really comfy and nice to be hold too! :D ) and he also did this second surprise wanted to see my expression like getting more happy and excited. Oh YEA! He did it again! =.= Lol
Next,I really thought is no surprise anymore and is finished. Unfortunately no. As he suddenly took out middle of nowhere with a Roxy paper bag! In my heart said OH GOSH! because he already spent a lot of money on my presents and is kinda painful seeing this. But what he prsent me also contain different meaning to be wore and kept.
Back to topic! The final present is a Roxy's watch. Really nice and is what I wanted to buy a long time ago but not Roxy brand.
Actually,my first thinking when he brought out the Roxy paper bag,I thought is a bikini. lol because I did mentioned to him that Roxy's bikini is really pretty and I would like to have one. LOL!
But, hubby you really did one thing which was succesful and you wanted it for so long. You had sucessful MADE ME CRIED! lol...the reason I did put my tears is because is been really long decade I did not feel have a people that treat me really great! I feel very happy and blissful. Thank you hubby♥
TAADA!!! What my hubby gave me on my Birthday! ♥ u
After that, we went to Shogun at Farenheit. We thought that birthday person is free but we made a mistake. Actually need to be 4 persons include the birthday person only consider free. but we also won't went to there again. The food was not really hot to serve although a lot of varieties.
Later on,we headed back to college again as I had class. Again I did not expect that my darlings and course rep will celebrate for me because on that I was kinda busy with my assignment stuff. I really had a blast!!!
These pictures were after finished the lecture class:
My hubby♥♥♥
My darlings♥
Presents from my darlings and course rep ♥
In my 19 years,this is the most happy birthday I ever had. Prsents that I received the most are this year! Love you darlings♥ and special thanks to Carmen Chai for taking all the pictures ♥
♥Love you,Hubby♥
Day Out with my Hubby to S.P.
We took LRT to the last station of Kelana Jaya and took a bus to Sunway Pyramid. Actually I was planning to take a cab instead of bus. This is because most of us know that bus will pick up and stop every stop so will delay the timing to reach there. As for cab is much more faster than the bus. I thought the bus will choose the long way to reach there instead of shortcuts.
That day I needed to raise a white flag up as I lost and spoke the wrong thing. The bus from Kelana Jaya most probably the same and also did use shortcuts :/ My hubby won and I lost...Lol
I miss the ice-skaiting session during last time. I really wanted to enter the ice rink. Due to the price is expensive so hubby said no. but he looked at my face expression ttold him I really want,actually I really do. Thank you hubby even though you were not really happy but yet still accompanied me and played together♥
Later that,you brought me to a chinese restaurant to grab our lunch.
I love this pic♥ as hubby look like dork ~ hahaha!!!
♥My 1st Memorable Valentine♥
I should post it early ago. Now is already been a month due to my laziness of blogging. Lol
I still remembar on that day,I was like as usual accompany him to work. Besides,I did not expect any Valentine's gift. This is because I prefer to celebrate it simple and nice. Just like he told me which is my hubby,if both together which are happy. Everyday can be a Valentine's day! Is really true though.
Until the Masjid Jamek LRT station,he like as usual went out to buy breakfast for both of us and I'm like as usual waiting him inside. He did bring along a big paper bag when came out from his house. but I did not know is a thing that he wanted to give me all I thought was his stuff.
When he finished bought the breakfast and walked back him. He looked at me and asked have I seen inside the paper bag's stuff. I replied no as I'm a respectful person,I don't simply look others stuff without permission :P
Back to topic! Later that he took the 'thing' from his paper bag and
Taada!
HONESTLY speaking, it was really surprised me! It was a touching momment but too bad I did not do a thing that he always want. Which is put out tears. C'mon happy things happen won't gonna cry right??! Lol...is really pleased ♥ I also did give him a couple T but unfortunately I did not take a pic of the couple T :(
The second day of the flower became like this:
GETTING BIGGER and PRETTIER ♥♥♥
Seriously,I'm really happy. Thank you hubby ♥
I still remembar on that day,I was like as usual accompany him to work. Besides,I did not expect any Valentine's gift. This is because I prefer to celebrate it simple and nice. Just like he told me which is my hubby,if both together which are happy. Everyday can be a Valentine's day! Is really true though.
Until the Masjid Jamek LRT station,he like as usual went out to buy breakfast for both of us and I'm like as usual waiting him inside. He did bring along a big paper bag when came out from his house. but I did not know is a thing that he wanted to give me all I thought was his stuff.
When he finished bought the breakfast and walked back him. He looked at me and asked have I seen inside the paper bag's stuff. I replied no as I'm a respectful person,I don't simply look others stuff without permission :P
Back to topic! Later that he took the 'thing' from his paper bag and
Taada!
HONESTLY speaking, it was really surprised me! It was a touching momment but too bad I did not do a thing that he always want. Which is put out tears. C'mon happy things happen won't gonna cry right??! Lol...is really pleased ♥ I also did give him a couple T but unfortunately I did not take a pic of the couple T :(
The second day of the flower became like this:
GETTING BIGGER and PRETTIER ♥♥♥
Seriously,I'm really happy. Thank you hubby ♥
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