Lovely

A superb day I had!!

Although the whole day. My hubby and I stayed in the room for the whole day but I was very happy with it.

We had our breakfast near his house. As you see the above picture that I posted here he ordered lot of dim sum which like he did not predict that we couldn’t finish. How cute he is huh? Hahaha…anyway we did finished it all. Mostly ate by him though. Lol, he such a giant in eating food.

Is really nice when your love’s one are beside with you. The feelings like no matter what happen he will be here and protect you. You can feel is safe when he is beside you. I;m sure this feelings everyone does know especially for girls.

Honestly speaking he is a nice guy for me. Yes for now he does not own a car or a house. But he has good heart that I deserved to be loved. Furthermore, now he does not have but doesn’t mean in future he can’t get it.

A guy who is wealthy enough and has car or a house. But if he is not good in terms of treating others, especially treats towards his girlfriend or wife. He is a tremendously ridiculous guy.

For me my boy already is more than good enough. He has sacrificed a lot. It was very touching but at the same time I also do feel very guilty. As I can’t repay back to him. This relationship between he and I is consider I’ve found one in my life. Or you guys so call is “True Love”.

Now I can be with him, in future I’m also wish that the last person I spend with is him too.

Je’taime to my hubby boy♥

What can I say or What shall I say?

Sometimes I really do question myself. Why my hubby will dislike me doing this and that? Why he won’t let me or wouldn’t allow me to do this and that? Why he has to be like this? Why he can’t be like others? …I’m such “Question-nista huh? Lol

Seriuously, is really making me headache for quite some times. If I say I’m okay. Do you think I’m okay? Of course not. Come on, I’m a normal human being like you guys and also do have feelings ;/

BUT after I get mad or unhappy. I slowly flashback and think why he will this or why he will that and etc…the MAIN REASON also he does really care about me and my safety too.

He told me that me just only belong to him. Only can let me wear sexy when I’m with him. This because and also obviously he does not want other guys to have an eye on me. Furthermore, he knows I’m being tackle most of the times when I’m walking to my home.

I think deep inside actually he really concern me and yet I still create more worries to let him even worry about me.

I’m sorry hubby. I should be mature and not being naïve. I shall listen your words and advice. Sorry to let you worry so much. But also thank you that you still have the patience with me.

ILY hubby♥

Feelings

Such a long time did not update my blog. I wonder how is my blog now whether still alive or active?

Anyway, that doesn’t matter. What matter me most is my relationship with him which is my hubby. July is gonna fall next month and when is come to 13th is our 1 year anniversary. Is really happy right? But definitely is just physically happy, mentally Not happy. Just like my hubby said is been a year and yet we don’t have a chance that having a nice simple dinner together nor sleep together for at least a night. I know my hubby is really sad, but so do I.

For me I don’t want happen it like “a”. I want it to be happened like “are”. Everyday when I am day dreaming or sleeping while I’m dreaming. I also will dream about that someday you can come to my house or I go to your place that every single night that you will hug me to sleep till the next morning. Dream about we can go for a local trip together, to beach and everything. I really do want these to be happened, I’m so wish that a Fairy God Mother will fulfill my this dream now.

Every time when you say you need me, I also feel very bad that I could not be with you when you need me the most. When I need you the most, physically you cannot be with me too. But some comfort from you I’m already feel good enough. Lot of people say me and also you do say me, I’m like a person is easily to reach my satisfaction. Actually it depends what things. As for this I really do. This is because the way I have is not easy definitely I will grab the chance and precious it. Just like I’m having you. Getting a relationship can be easy but getting a good guy is not easy. You always say, you’re not good enough. For me you are more than enough. I trust you hubby that you are loyal to me. I believe that you can make my like dark become it colourful.

If saying not good enough, is me aren’t you. I always fail you and sometimes also can’t even fulfill the simple needs that you want. Even though most of the times we meet the time is less just like 15 minutes in the morning or 1 hour your break. It doesn’t matter for me. Sometimes I even rushing to there because to meet you for an hour. But that okay for me, because I really do care about us. You said I’m suffer like this. I told you countless time, have the chance to meet you I feel happy is not suffer. I don’t mind the process if the result is good for me. Don’t you know hubby?

Is really sweet that you always treat me so nice. I feel very bliss and safe when I’m with you. The feeling that you always give me, is always better than my parents. You always my parents treat me not bad. For me no matter how they treat me good, they also won’t treat like you treat me so good. Sometimes when I see you, I really want to hug you and cry out loud. But like you say our time spending is less cannot involve so many unhappy stuff with it.

♥ For me you are my first priority valuable person in my life. Bare in mind hubby you are irreplaceable.♥