Fuck U !

Rude huh?

As I'm really sad and angry!

Promise me the thing or pretend to be promised and blame on me. It feels like shit and hell. Stop pretend to be Mr or Mrs Know it all. No yall are not especially you!

Fuck off! Is really annoying and I'm sick with it.

A small thing also cannot. What on earth man??!! Gosh,is really fucking shity! Damn you.

I really hate myself

Again ,the same mistake I did.

I’m really sorry to make u so troublesome and sad. I know I’ve been doing a lot of wrong things.

I’m really stupid and naïve. I know I cannot be forgiven.sorry that I did not pick up your phone calls because due to I’m really sick and cried with take tears and slept. When I woke up I only noticed that you called me many times and I did not pick up.

But when I picked up,u were really angry.when u asked me what I want. I did not know because you were so angry and I’m really scare and don’t know what to do.

All I can answered you is nothing that I want

When I said I'm not important,actually i really think that you will say something nice and fight back my words. In addition, I just want us to be happy like others. I know what I say is useless. I don’t reply u because u don’t want to listen to me.You said I did a lot things that let u down but u also said a lot of words that really hurt me most of the times. But I do not blame on u. Because the ‘lai yuan’ of those problems are from me.

If u feel happy to do this,I’m also fine. As long as you happy then I also will be happy.

U know why I want u to meet my aunt? Because if we continue like this we sure will argue all the time,I don’t want this to happen and I hope I can fulfill what u and I requested. I can see that my aunt will be better than my dad

I’m not gonna sleep tonight because I will do the same thing cry and pray.

What I’ve sent those messages to your phone is true. But I don’t think you will because I let u get upset again.i’m really sorry.

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I’m really sorry. I feel that I’m very stupid sent so many texts and didn’t get one that to reply me. I’m really upset but is my fault.

I told you because I’m really afraid that our relationship will tasteless. I now you not afraid and you also used to it. I’m sorry. For me I do and really afraid too.
I do like this is because due this semester is short semester. Furthermore , you keep telling me I can do it, won’t let you down and especially need to prove to him which is my dad.

In order, to meet my aunt or my parents at least need to score at least average. So that I can bring you to meet them as soon as possible. I feel so stupid.

Next time, I won’t tell you will make you so not happy. I’m really sorry.

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You don’t need feel guilty for yourself. The other way round is I’m the one who need to feel that and yes every single day I will feel guilty and blame myself. As most of the problems are I created out.

I know you treat me well I do know and I really do appreciate it. I will cherish every single moment we have. Although is not enough but I will still cherish it. You said we’re getting less conversation together but for me not less actually is not bad. This is because when I talk or text with you I will feel happy because you can make me laugh and smile.


I’m sorry. I know what I need to do next!


I wish I can be the best of both worlds at least places.

God,please guide me.

Is really sad when a person that say he or she will break up even though is a joke. When comes to this when his or her partner listen is really sad. As comes to this the partner is fragile like a glass. Furthermore, another of your him or her will say our conversation is getting less. But do you know that when you bring up the funny joke about break up , who is going to have mood to continue a happy or smooth conversation. Especially for girls.

But some things cannot be blamed because no matter how is only can is myself fault. My own luck is like that (maybe). Because one of it can’t do or fulfill the other person needs. Not to say don’t want is cannot. You really want but you don’t know that I really want , and the want is more than you. But I guess will be the same answer I get back. Oh , better be or girls always lies . Girls are like that but not all. If love a person you will blissful to accept it if you don’t , I guess you know what the answer.

End up the battle I will face on my own. End up when comes to hard time I will face alone. Even though , a person cannot be here to comfort but use the words to comfort is good enough because base on this I'm already happy. At least , have someone that care about me and understand me. But I guess I will be back like last time , face it alone. Really hurt and sad but what can I do. Please guide me,my God.

Why can't I be like others?

Is pretty sickening! when most of the people can do and yet I can't.
Is really frustrated.

I really want something that I want and want to be. Can't blame me I'm rebellious as are both of your fault especially you!I really hate you inside and out. Even though sometimes I won't hate you but most of the times you'll remind me and I'll hate you!!!